I went for S.O.P

Yesterday, i went to S.O.P? what is S.O.P mean is "Sound of prisas". My colleagues intro and bring me go..Oh it was a concert to me. when i started to step inside the room i feel is normal, when i the concert had start, out of sudden i feel so touching of the songs.. i dunno what out of sudden will strange feeling to me. Anyway, i been seeing a lot of performance before... got that kind of feelings.. is very touching one. But this at least not bad.

But today i got the feelings that i sense that my bf had fooling my back.. i dunno what he doing. he had reconnected his phone already.. which didnt told me at all. Now he had off his phone. What am the fuck he is doing my back? i wanted to question him? but if i question him, sure will telling me a lie... when i dun wan to hear it at all. I just want to leave him like that. but is had be wasted a lot of timing and money to me. What fuck he is doing beside me and sleeping with me all night. he still wan to control me at all. from his mouth said that wanted to give me freedom, but in his heart cant control it, only using his mind to control. Should i tell him off , need to break up? I had given him so many chance to change, which my parents and my sister kept telling me that he is not a good guy at all. Said he come for me is for the money and not for the love.? what for .??? what can i do? at what situation should i had nice talk and cool down with him? I dun wan to make my life so miserable and unhappy.. I going seek for a new life.. I think if i really end of this relationship, please dun come any love for me anymore. which i dun wan that anymore.. making me so sad and sad... and very unhappy ....