@ expo visiting to Hello Kitty Lap 2009

New photos Updated... @_@

So Happy today..... :-)

So happy today, quite spend alot of money. me and dear went to hello kitty lab held at expo.. So cute of the charters but entrance fee so so expensive. I wanted to go in so much, dear had no choice to cost a bomb to spend me entrance fee, and bought me some of the souvenir. cos i wanted so much.. Some more the souvenir quite ex man!!!!...me will upload the photos soon, cos quite late already... need some ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz..

Wat a rush day...

Haiz today is what a rush day for myself, this morning i went to see my family's doctor who is my grandpa specialist doctor at orchard building.. accompany with my mum, sis, grandma and dear. Who wan to see , is my sister who got nose bleeding always, scare she got nose cancer or anything else. lucky nothing wrong at all, after see doctor, me and my dear went to cappage centre to sign up for zero dollars hp, which i need a sim card, and he need a new hp, after that when went to meet my sister they all (including my mum and grandma)which is my uncle open another branch of coffee cafe at china town. Long time didnt go for china town, there so many shop to shopping, i went to a shop which sell cheap branded perfume and alot of beauty contour things, which compare outside in those big shopping mall is cheaper. My dear bought me a (which is my under fav brands) moshino perfume, body lotion and bath shower gel,christian dior lipstick for my grandma and perfume for my mum..(dunno what brand perfume for my mum...) did notice about that. After that we send my grandma home and i got home need to stay at home to answer phone calls again.. tot of going out for midnight movie.... too bad my dear is too tired and lay on the bed and fell asleep... i try to wake him up... he mumble those words can understand... but he dun wish to go out and watch want to be PIG PIG..... hahahahahahhahahahhahhah

What a rough Weekend!!!

This over weekend i was so tough... CUrrently i had taken up another job.. I just helping my auntie to take call when she was out to collect the debts. And Sunday which is today, i also went to back office to work. but i was so happy and sweet... cos my dear dear had been waited for me for 6 hrs. if change to my shoe i rather will not waited for him. Maybe i am lazy and selfish. But i did told him drop me off than he can went back home, which he dont want at all.

I knock off at 5pm. So we went shopping at Bugis and Orchard rd.We walk until our legs dame tired.....some more no car transport go home so we need to take bus to go home.. dear told me that need to practices to walk some more... if one day no car to drive lei, how can we survive , i just keep quiet and agree with him in my heart

Dinner for today

Just now i went to HK Cafe this evening with my friend, and jus know about this guy is my friend's bf. what i can see this guy which my friend had told me abit of different. My friend still love him, and this guy still love her too. But due to what my friend told me that he doesnt want to commit anything with her. but i can see him really dun wan to commit it at all. what i can see that this guy really care about her ,is it or maybe that act in front of us? which i also dunno at all. But what i can see that my friend really like him alot. but both of them is matchable ? or there are unreveal behind story from their back.....

How about my relationship , at the moments is quite good... no argements at all... this is the way i like to stay put... Hope can carry on like this.

Happy happy Present.,,,, @_@

That was two months ago present. I suppose wanted to post the photos, due to i was so lazy about it... about going to 3 months , we dun had all the stupid argument already. I hope we can be stay put like this forever.. happily plus looking for future... last few week we had been clubbing alot... with my bunch gals friend. after seeing them, i quite felt happy for them. cos i knew them when they are half adult to adult... so happy for them.. bless them..

Lovely Present from my Dear

Virus Is attack me again

I had been coughing two ago... so i had no choice to see the doctor again.. Doctor had said that i had been kana anti virus by H1N1 attack...But is not comfirm i had H1N1 lor. That why i had been feeling aching last few day and keeping coughing not stop during night time. I was so shock that had having fever when i go see doctor... The medinice was dame so expensive it cost about 71 bucks... sooooooo heart pain.. stay at home doing nothing.. feel my body so warm right now...and aching all the time... muscel so tied and clamps.... MC for 2 days... haizzzzzzzzzzz... @_@

我生病了

Last night i went to watch District 9... dont know that the story is base on true story? The story is happen in johnnesbures, while in the therater i was keep snezzing, when i know office i kept sneezing already.. but i tot is itchy cos i was doing with my stuff. open mails.. and sorty it out to other dept... i dont when i become to be open mails. at least my job is doing DE.. but anyway is okie for me do to all this job.. better than dun had a job to do.. some one is look up than me to give me a task to do.. maybe a good luck will fall to my side... Maybe a perm job in this working... at least i know something.. i dun wan to find another job.. although is pay very less, than last time, at least i still can survive myself.. better than stay at home doing nothing... right???? okie come back to the show after the movie, i went back home and take a rest, my bf keep pertersing for my password to switch on internet... sian... after he broke his laptop down, keep using my laptop during weekdays. i was so sain that i cant watch my 第八号当铺 for series... said that i was using for so long. yet i cant do my things... and surf net.. when thinking of that so piss of with him lor. I wan to scold him, but i cant be so selfish ma... but serve him right... who ask him to broke his loptop down... none of my business..

Slowly i come fall asleep , middle of night i feel so cold in my room.. so i had no choice that i went to my sister room,lucky i my darling is fetch me go and see doctor and send me back.... so i having a fever and went to see doctor, doctor suspect that i having H1n1 viruse... i told him that jus give me a normal treatment 1st. i dun think so i had that kind of virus... not that so red lucky lor.. now my fever had gone down.... so next eating pandol is 4pm... now is sweating lor.. lucky dun feel cold liao...

我的感触

Yesterday i went to for a play, the play is about the real life and happen all the times. Which it mention about love and family matters. After the show , i told my mum how about feel, which i had hurt her so deep. i wish to amend her broken heart, after she had listen , she told me that i am insane. I had a goal right now, i am going to save a lot of money to go for holiday and think for my rest of my life is what am i going to do. My mummy is getting older and older, which she is helping me until now, i feel so shameful about this? what am i going to deal with her broken heart. she told me said is nothing, only me can do is the action to prove to her... Can i do it? what if i broke her heart again? what will she think of me? i also don't at all. Me give me a light to lighten my mind.

I am very Sad And Heart broken

I had decided to end my relationship, it was a opportunity to chat with a friend with a same surname. And out sudden she told me that she is her ex before. out of sudden it reminds me that time "he" said to me how come i add her into her face book. Than she said that i am the thirty party to spoil their relationship. before i start to dating him, he told me that he is single and no girlfriend for 7 yrs, which i found out, he is a cheated and liar. cos before i was dating him, he still with another relationship on, than her ex fed up and broke up with him. his ex ask me before, did he mention about he wan to die, or what. I was so fusy up and call his friend, and ask about did he with him, his friend told me that he didnt with him plus he is finding him also. So this is prove that, he got another gal behind back..I don't care that he got gal friend right now. that moment that he bluff me and cheated me is wrong, i can make him up in the sky and pull him into hell. This time i really lost and Heart broken, when "he" had trouble, "he" asked for help.. i really use the heart and effort to help him, what did i get return, is nothing. Actually i dun want to anything from him, I just want him to faithful to me.. this is very difficult? Anyway this is a hard times for me to get over him.

I went for S.O.P

Yesterday, i went to S.O.P? what is S.O.P mean is "Sound of prisas". My colleagues intro and bring me go..Oh it was a concert to me. when i started to step inside the room i feel is normal, when i the concert had start, out of sudden i feel so touching of the songs.. i dunno what out of sudden will strange feeling to me. Anyway, i been seeing a lot of performance before... got that kind of feelings.. is very touching one. But this at least not bad.

But today i got the feelings that i sense that my bf had fooling my back.. i dunno what he doing. he had reconnected his phone already.. which didnt told me at all. Now he had off his phone. What am the fuck he is doing my back? i wanted to question him? but if i question him, sure will telling me a lie... when i dun wan to hear it at all. I just want to leave him like that. but is had be wasted a lot of timing and money to me. What fuck he is doing beside me and sleeping with me all night. he still wan to control me at all. from his mouth said that wanted to give me freedom, but in his heart cant control it, only using his mind to control. Should i tell him off , need to break up? I had given him so many chance to change, which my parents and my sister kept telling me that he is not a good guy at all. Said he come for me is for the money and not for the love.? what for .??? what can i do? at what situation should i had nice talk and cool down with him? I dun wan to make my life so miserable and unhappy.. I going seek for a new life.. I think if i really end of this relationship, please dun come any love for me anymore. which i dun wan that anymore.. making me so sad and sad... and very unhappy ....

Need some of thoughts

I had been thinking alot of times, which i wanted to had breakup with my bf. I dunnno the love had go down on the slope and i no more loving him, this few weeks he had been late coming back home, and like to go out without me. I did not ask him to bring me go, but when the time to stay at home, he wants to go out and rather to stay at home> Do i over sensitive? which i had been asking question by myself?
Are he is the one who care take care of my rest of my life? i dislike him, which when he go malaysia over the weekend, and spend all the money, likes to ask me for money.. this is really i thru. I also dunno what to do with this relationship. I quite hopeless right now. I hope someone who can lighten up my mind...

Days of the freedom *_*

Yeah today is my freedom of the days.. no one disturb me watching online movies, and i am stay at home all alone. i wish to get slim down again... how to slim down? i dun wish to eat those medicine... cos i dun think it help me alot. And i dunno how to go down fast in shape? eat less... exercise alot? my leg is use to injured before how to exercise ma... haiz.... Help me Help me.....

My mother is very Sad and Stress about me

Today in the early morning that , my mum talk to me that she very stress about me. She told me that she had been treating so nice and enough of me. I was very sad that she told me , she wish that i was not her daughter, and not married before. she might be very happy about this matters. when she nag nag me at that moments, i kept thinking of running away from home. but on others hands of thinking of my mind, if i left like that what she will think about me? I think she will be very hate me. I wish i can be my younger sister, she was so capable, although she not earning much, but she can manage her duties and she never let mum worry about her. That's why that mum so dotes her a lot, she deserve that mums loves her more than me. I want to be get something big, but i keep doing mistake. I wish that i can look after my mummy in my rest of the life. No matters right now is so hard and stress now, i need to stand up.. do somethings and prove to my mummy that i care about her, i will look after her for rest my entire life. I would to said to my mummy ,, I AM VERY SORRY i let you down . PLEASE FORGIVE ME ........ @_@

妈妈与我和男朋友的故事

Yesterday, i asking my mother to help my bf again due to his finance. This is the second times for asking mum to taking out her money to lent to my 4th bf again. This is not the first time to asking my mum to lent money to all my ex bf. first, third didn't return back. How about the current one, i also dun know at all. I feel so shameful and useless which i keep asking money for my mum. I don't want to be like that. I keep blaming myself why i keep finding this type of bf? If i don't had bf , i will not getting all the money trouble with my mum. i feel so disgraceful when i talk to my mum. My heart is so painful , when i asking my mum to taking out large sum money, her money is hard earn money... because my bf , all her hard earn money is gone within into thin air. Due to this matters, i kept thinking wanted to leave my bf or not. if i leave him, will the money get return? I do love him , but sometimes he likes to think a lot of thing, which never will happen it. He really cares about me. but sometimes a little bit of too much. This all things is doesn't mind to me. It really mind is i don't like all my bf for asking borrow money for me or asking my mum helping. This really make me will look down my all bf, but i always thinks that everyone deserves chances, like me is so useless , study never turn in good grades, working experience just a so so only. Now a days i really hardly falling in sleep, my heart is so hard breaking, due to i am so useless.... why i cant be a happy gal. don't need anyone look down on me? I am letting my mum down, cos i am useless gal, and keep finding such a bf . I don't wish like that anymore. Sometimes i also thinking jump down on the roof, i think that mum will happy if i not creating trouble to her. But on other side, if i die? will i make my mum heart breaking? if i still staying where am i right now..I will going mad so or later, i also don't know when is it will happen of mental. I don't want see my mum to be unhappy and so stress about me. I want to see my mummy to be happy always... and ever. My mummy is a wonderful in this world, which in next life i also want her to be my mummy again. I promise myself, if this relationship if didn't last long, i will not going seeing and dating again for my entire life. I don't wish to see my mummy sad again and over again.... i am very very sad sad and breaking her heart again and again. letting her down..... I wish a good luck will fall to my side... But i am still waiting.... I Love you mummy.... don't worry i will not let you down again.... i will be strong again...