我的感触

Yesterday i went to for a play, the play is about the real life and happen all the times. Which it mention about love and family matters. After the show , i told my mum how about feel, which i had hurt her so deep. i wish to amend her broken heart, after she had listen , she told me that i am insane. I had a goal right now, i am going to save a lot of money to go for holiday and think for my rest of my life is what am i going to do. My mummy is getting older and older, which she is helping me until now, i feel so shameful about this? what am i going to deal with her broken heart. she told me said is nothing, only me can do is the action to prove to her... Can i do it? what if i broke her heart again? what will she think of me? i also don't at all. Me give me a light to lighten my mind.