我生病了

Last night i went to watch District 9... dont know that the story is base on true story? The story is happen in johnnesbures, while in the therater i was keep snezzing, when i know office i kept sneezing already.. but i tot is itchy cos i was doing with my stuff. open mails.. and sorty it out to other dept... i dont when i become to be open mails. at least my job is doing DE.. but anyway is okie for me do to all this job.. better than dun had a job to do.. some one is look up than me to give me a task to do.. maybe a good luck will fall to my side... Maybe a perm job in this working... at least i know something.. i dun wan to find another job.. although is pay very less, than last time, at least i still can survive myself.. better than stay at home doing nothing... right???? okie come back to the show after the movie, i went back home and take a rest, my bf keep pertersing for my password to switch on internet... sian... after he broke his laptop down, keep using my laptop during weekdays. i was so sain that i cant watch my 第八号当铺 for series... said that i was using for so long. yet i cant do my things... and surf net.. when thinking of that so piss of with him lor. I wan to scold him, but i cant be so selfish ma... but serve him right... who ask him to broke his loptop down... none of my business..

Slowly i come fall asleep , middle of night i feel so cold in my room.. so i had no choice that i went to my sister room,lucky i my darling is fetch me go and see doctor and send me back.... so i having a fever and went to see doctor, doctor suspect that i having H1n1 viruse... i told him that jus give me a normal treatment 1st. i dun think so i had that kind of virus... not that so red lucky lor.. now my fever had gone down.... so next eating pandol is 4pm... now is sweating lor.. lucky dun feel cold liao...

我的感触

Yesterday i went to for a play, the play is about the real life and happen all the times. Which it mention about love and family matters. After the show , i told my mum how about feel, which i had hurt her so deep. i wish to amend her broken heart, after she had listen , she told me that i am insane. I had a goal right now, i am going to save a lot of money to go for holiday and think for my rest of my life is what am i going to do. My mummy is getting older and older, which she is helping me until now, i feel so shameful about this? what am i going to deal with her broken heart. she told me said is nothing, only me can do is the action to prove to her... Can i do it? what if i broke her heart again? what will she think of me? i also don't at all. Me give me a light to lighten my mind.

I am very Sad And Heart broken

I had decided to end my relationship, it was a opportunity to chat with a friend with a same surname. And out sudden she told me that she is her ex before. out of sudden it reminds me that time "he" said to me how come i add her into her face book. Than she said that i am the thirty party to spoil their relationship. before i start to dating him, he told me that he is single and no girlfriend for 7 yrs, which i found out, he is a cheated and liar. cos before i was dating him, he still with another relationship on, than her ex fed up and broke up with him. his ex ask me before, did he mention about he wan to die, or what. I was so fusy up and call his friend, and ask about did he with him, his friend told me that he didnt with him plus he is finding him also. So this is prove that, he got another gal behind back..I don't care that he got gal friend right now. that moment that he bluff me and cheated me is wrong, i can make him up in the sky and pull him into hell. This time i really lost and Heart broken, when "he" had trouble, "he" asked for help.. i really use the heart and effort to help him, what did i get return, is nothing. Actually i dun want to anything from him, I just want him to faithful to me.. this is very difficult? Anyway this is a hard times for me to get over him.

I went for S.O.P

Yesterday, i went to S.O.P? what is S.O.P mean is "Sound of prisas". My colleagues intro and bring me go..Oh it was a concert to me. when i started to step inside the room i feel is normal, when i the concert had start, out of sudden i feel so touching of the songs.. i dunno what out of sudden will strange feeling to me. Anyway, i been seeing a lot of performance before... got that kind of feelings.. is very touching one. But this at least not bad.

But today i got the feelings that i sense that my bf had fooling my back.. i dunno what he doing. he had reconnected his phone already.. which didnt told me at all. Now he had off his phone. What am the fuck he is doing my back? i wanted to question him? but if i question him, sure will telling me a lie... when i dun wan to hear it at all. I just want to leave him like that. but is had be wasted a lot of timing and money to me. What fuck he is doing beside me and sleeping with me all night. he still wan to control me at all. from his mouth said that wanted to give me freedom, but in his heart cant control it, only using his mind to control. Should i tell him off , need to break up? I had given him so many chance to change, which my parents and my sister kept telling me that he is not a good guy at all. Said he come for me is for the money and not for the love.? what for .??? what can i do? at what situation should i had nice talk and cool down with him? I dun wan to make my life so miserable and unhappy.. I going seek for a new life.. I think if i really end of this relationship, please dun come any love for me anymore. which i dun wan that anymore.. making me so sad and sad... and very unhappy ....